Bonjour! (it's actually 12noon now heh)
I was reading JonWoon's post about Google linked from Facebook (yeah i've been pretty active recently) earlier and it just hit me real hard. If only i had made full use of Google during my hunt for tertiary education back when i just finished my SPM in 2008, i would've ended up in a liberal arts college by now. I mean, i knew Google existed back then, i use Google occasionally to look for stuff, but i had never really made use of it like how i do right now.
Right now, there is not a day in my life that passes by where i do not use Google. Except for the days where i don't have internet access lah. But still, Google had became a very important source of information and entertainment for me these days. (When i'm really really reeeeeaally bored i go on Google Map to see where's where wtf) And i regret making Google an important site for myself so late, and i will tell you exactly why.
When i was still in Form 5, there were private colleges and talks and stuff for us about what options are there when we leave high school. The sad thing is that these private colleges, coming all the way to Teluk Intan had one thing on their mind ; to enrol potential customers for their colleges. Don't get me wrong, i'm not saying that private colleges' sole purpose of existing is prey at students for their money. It's just that they only expose us to options that are available in their college, and not what is the best for us. Counsellors in school is an option too, but they vary according to their own mindset and thinking. My high school counsellor too, only expose us to options to further our studies locally, and nothing more. Though i had some relatives that graduated from overseas, the people around me had a mind set on the fact that "studying overseas costs you tonnes and tonnes of money". Not only my relatives, but my parents too, told me that if i want to go overseas to study, the only place that they can afford is Singapore. Little did they know, there were tonnes and tonnes of scholarships and financial aids provided by each and every college in the States now. Not only that, there are private companies that would like to create opportunities for students from all over the world that might not be financially capable. AND, these scholarships and financial aids are not all 100% based on how many A's you got for your SPM.
If only i knew about that sooner. If only i had came across sweatlee's FAQ on American Colleges earlier. If only i had intensified my research back in 2009 and broadened my mind and be open to every options available. Back then, my research on Google was only restricted to STPM vs A-levels. It was only months after STPM i had came to find out about liberal arts college in US which suited my situation much much better than what i've set my path on right now. You might say that it's still not TOO late to sign up for a liberal arts college after my STPM, but after spending 2 years on STPM, you really do not feel like going back to where you started AND waiting for another year because you had missed the deadline for the application for most colleges. Oh my see what am i doing now. Giving excuses. I guess the main problem here is the 'Tidak Apa' attitude that Malaysians possess?
Well, if you were a frequent reader of this blog you would've seen the endless dilemma i was facing while trying to decide what to study because once you're in, you can't get out. Okay maybe not entirely true. You can drop out mid-way, waste maybe RM10k or more, and go start all over again for another course. And repeat the process till you're 30 or 40 wtf. And now that i'm set on accounting, there is still a part of me that frequently asks "what if i grow to not like this path? Or worse still, hate it?" but the other part of me will just slap this part of me and tells her to suck it up cos there's no turning back anymore beyond this point. Like it or not, i have to continue until i graduate and after i graduate then only there's a slight hope to maybe make a detour for my career.
My post is not about liberal arts college so if you want to know more about it please visit sweatlee's site or better yet, use GOOGLE! Use it, abuse it, rape it, do whatever you want with it. After you find out about it then you'd know why i said going to a liberal arts college is what i'm supposed to be doing now. Squeeze all the information out of Google until it's dry. Read journals, blogs, websites, forums, anything. Spend 500 hours in front of the computer and make your eyes bleed from reading too much if you need to because this will all be well worth it for your future! Or at least, for a future of your liking with no regrets. Not like yours truly. Bleh.
Anyway, what has happened has happened. No point crying over spilled milk. No point regretting it (though it can't be helped). Google is right there, sitting, and waiting for you to use it to explore what's out there. I hope someone whom is having the same situation as me goes blog-walking or just happened to stumble upon this post and realize that there are a lot more options out there other than what was showed to them by certain people. At least i can make one person not regret like how me :(
HAIH. Okay enough of complaining and i'm off to lunch. Adios!
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