idunwanna

Is being old synonymous to being emo?

Damn.
Dang.
I wasn't like this when i was younger.
I hardly go emo. I hardly had 'one of the nights'.
Now, it's happening like.. i dunno.
cos i just had 'one of the nights' last week, and tonight was another one.
I couldn't bloody hold my pen and do my homework in peace.
I was meddling with my qwerty keypad and listening to stupid songs again and again.
Oh., and when i was listening to the songs, i was reminiscing.
Like, every song i listened to reminded me of someone. Or some situation i was in.
Am not gonna say it out here, am not in the mood to elaborate.
Bleh.

And when i was typing halfway my brother came and peeked at what i was doing, as usual.

He's so annoying. Pffft.

Potong stim dah.

I wanna do something crazy. Something mind-blowing. Something... that will sweep me off MY feet.
- Mind blank -

I need some love. I need lotsa love. No i don't feel like loving now. Loveless.

Am i just finding excuses not to study? Maybe.
Well, that's actually NORMAL, cos i've been bloodily hardworking for the past 4 months!
Ok i wouldn't say really hardworking, but i've put effort.
Maybe not enough for my parents' standard. Bleh.
They demand constant work.
I AM doing constant work. I'm just stupid. And i'm someone that needs a life.
I need to socialise. I need to.... get out of this solitude. I work with people.
I even study better when there are people around.
I don't necessarily need to talk with them, i just need them around.
Yeah i'm exaggerating. Let me be.
My blog. My rant. My feelings.
This sucks
=.=