很痛苦

Just got off the phone with a conversation that got me thinking, real deep. U know how u link one thing to another, and then another, and then another, and then it eats u up alive from within?
And then i got all emo and got close to tears.

It's scary what age does to u, huh? And yes, i blame all these emotions on the aging process. I blame alot of things on aging as well. Like, my inability to stay up late although i stayed up till 0400 yesterday. But i was practically 3 quarter dead by the time i reached my bed.

As if i haven't go enough on my plate with studies and all those future shit, now i have other issues. Won't say it out here cos i'm freaking irritated with snoopers. I'm really tempted to stop Facebook once and for all. Facebook is troublesome. Brings a lot of mess and trouble. I'll go one step at a time.

I wish that i could just get a 2 days 1 night trip, ALONE, to a deserted island and just spend some time alone there, y'know? Some alone time. Am feeling terribly lonely in a crowd of people, that's what people say. Why did i chose deserted island, cos if i were to go to some other beaches or commercial island alone i might end up being kidnapped and raped by 8 foreigners in 110 minutes and got thrown into some bushes naked only to be found the next morning. *gasp* So much for imaginations. Times are bad now and so there are no space for being emotional like this.

Well. Life goes on. Gotta suck it up and move on.