In light of the recent hazy hoo-ha, i have found the rekindled desire to express my thoughts on this semi-abandoned blog of mine after a conversation with a friend of mine today.
The conversation started with the weather (Malaysians now can talk about the weather too, not just English people! Hah.), as the heat and humidity of this little country of mine had escalated rather dramatically in the past week no thanks to the haze caused by the burning of forest in our Sumatera, yet again. According to news and personal observation, this is the worst haze the country had experienced in history and i'm quite surprised that despite the fact that this happens on an annual basis, no action has been taken yet.
Anyway, back to the topic. And then we get to talk about air-conditioning, and i just slipped in a "I didn't switch on the air conditioning for the the whole week", and he was taken aback, a reaction which i get a lot in this ghastly weather. When i reasoned out that i did it because i did not want to contribute more heat to the atmosphere than it already has, he blatantly said "What difference can one person make?".
I felt a tsunami of emotion overwhelming me in a split second.
I was on the verge of going berserk with 10001 arguments to fire back at that statement.
Being the composed person that i always am *cough cough*, i took a deep breath and said "What if 100,000 people thought like you?". At that point of time, i didn't bother attempting to go into a deeper discussion/debate pertaining the topic because how can a person who utters that loathing statement be able to understand anything other than their own little bubble of thoughts?
As my thoughts struck me in the wee hours of the morning when i'm doing my revision (yes, my thoughts start to wander in the serenity and quietness of the night), how different am i from him? Here i am, constantly reminding myself not to be stereotypical and judgmental, finding myself stereotyping and judging to the max. It was my duty to set his crooked thinking straight and yet i discharge myself of that duty because i was set that this man's thinking is not worth a debate.
My thinking was, a big change starts with a baby step. But how long have i been constant in my baby steps? I have only been doing things myself, not reaching out. Same goes to my evangelism activities. I have been stagnant for way too long. It should be the time that i gather all that i have and move to the next step. *semangat membara-bara*
Easier said than done, huh?
On a completely side note, i was very happy that one of my friend asked for the title of the song i had linked in my previous post, Consuming Fire, because she wanted to listen to it :) Glad that you found it nice *wink* !
There is so many things i can link to this blog post, i think i won't be able to finish it by 8am. However, i would like to share this very meaningful article with all ye Malaysians who are set that "All hope is lost in Malaysia", yet another sentence i loathe at the sound of it. I have JonWoon to thank for sharing this link on Facebook.
People think polices in Malaysia are not doing anything about the crime, Malaysia has been infested with corruption and scrutinizing every change to the country that was done. I won't deny that these issues are in light of concern of the nation, but things are not as bad as they seem, especially when you have sculpted your thinking and judgment based on sources which are not credible (i.e. Facebook posts, complaints of friends over Teh Tarik).
Sigh. I really DO think a lot at night huh?
Well my biological clock had been nocturnal these few days, no thanks to my attempt to speed up my assignment progress to make way for final's revision, and i found out that i was most productive at ungodly hours like now (4.45am). There's something about the serenity and quietness that i found a liking for. I finally understood my Pakistani friends' passion for staying up the whole night while sleeping the day away. But i have this weird habit of not liking to sleep when the sun has come up. I am the new definition of weirdo!
So much to do, so little time, yet i find myself coming to Blogger to let a little of Fiona thoughts out of my system. Thank you Blogger for letting me spill my thoughts for 4 years! Even though you've apparently became mainstream (according to someone-YES I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU, YOU-KNOW-WHO-YOU-ARE. lol), i thank you for recording my life's journey so that one day i can look back and read up all my immature and childish thoughts from when i'm young till..... i stop writing here.
Anyhoooo. I'm signing off to Dreamland now. Praying for the dreadful haze to subside, and i plead for all of you to help pray for the haze to subside as well :) My once acne-free skin has become an eyesore to mankind now, no thanks to the pollution i'm exposed to.
Mother Earth, i'm so sorry about what we've done to you.
June 25, 2013
June 5, 2013
There must be more than this.
School. Books. Exams. Assignments. Food. Work. Money. Entertainment. Fun.
There must be more than life to this. If i were to be called back to my Father in heaven today, i'd be dying (LOL the pun) for an extension, for i have so many, though unknown, things yet to be done.
The Earth is in a worrying state, Malaysia needs the support of those who believe she can still be saved, that one day she will be a beautiful Nation with people who loves God, and the world of technology is taking over the world.
So many problems, but you only have one lifetime.
Starting with my worries about technology, not that i'm not a person of technology, because compared to my parents and grandparents' time i am very much into technology and pretty much grew up with technology around me. And if you see me now, i'm pretty much holding my smartphone with me wherever i go. But do i still enjoy reading a book, smelling its musty smell, or reading the newspaper, getting my fingers black? Yes. Do i (occasionally) enjoy sweating, being out in the Sun around plants and trees listening to the birds chirping and crickets creakin? Yes. Will i survive an entire day without gadgets? Yes.
Being at the age where you see babies being born left, right, front and at the back of you, you would start noticing the different upbringing of a child in the era where a kid's meal would consist of French Fries and junks, flipping the pages of a book (IF they ever read one) would be swiping your finger from right to left on the iPad, and the only way to shut a crying baby up is to hand them your smartphone or tablet for a game. Is this how i would raise my future kids? I dread it.
I find myself relying on technology so much that it scares me. I always use the amazing application Waze when i need to find something, instead of the old conventional way of using my brain or asking around. Technology had molded our mindset into "Don't waste time on trial and error, get i right on the first time" which doesn't actually sound evil, but is an error due to trying bad? There's a saying :
I want to try saving the environment, I want to try help Malaysia to grow into a better nation, I want to find out what the Lord has in store for me, I want to find out who I am, I want to find out my place on this Earth, I want to find out where I belong.
So many wants, but there is no scarcity of resources here. (Economics in life, uhuh)
Where do I start? How will I know if this is not one of my hot chicken shit desires? How will I carry these out?
I need a fire, I need a kick (yes, kick not a push cos it won't suffice), I need a path miraculously opened to me in the wilderness.
Pray, pray, and pray for the answer will be the answer. Until i get the answer, i will continue to believe and continue trying in the little baby steps i am able to do as of now as He had told us to do.
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. Matthew 7 : 7
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. Matthew 11 : 24
If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer. Matthew 21 : 22
There must be more than this,
O breath of God come breathe within,
There must be more than this,
Spirit of God we wait for You.
Fill us anew we pray,
Fill us anew we pray.
(Chorus)
Consuming fire fan into flame,
A passion for Your Name,
Spirit of God won't you fall in this place,
Lord have Your way,
Lord have Your way with us,
Come like a rushing wind,
Clothe us with power from on high,
Now set the captives free,
Leave us abandoned to Your praise.
Lord let Your glory fall,
Lord let Your glory fall.
(Chorus)
Consuming fire fan into flame,
A passion for Your Name,
Spirit of God won't you fall in this place,
Lord have Your way,
Lord have Your way with us,
Come like a rushing wind,
Clothe us with power from on high,
Now set the captives free,
Leave us abandoned to Your praise.
Lord let Your glory fall,
Lord let Your glory fall,
(Chorus)
Consuming fire fan into flame,
A passion for Your Name,
Spirit of God won't you fall in this place,
Lord have Your way,
Lord have Your way with us,
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts,
A passion for Your Name.
(A passion for Jesus)
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts,
A passion for Your Name.
There must be more than life to this. If i were to be called back to my Father in heaven today, i'd be dying (LOL the pun) for an extension, for i have so many, though unknown, things yet to be done.
The Earth is in a worrying state, Malaysia needs the support of those who believe she can still be saved, that one day she will be a beautiful Nation with people who loves God, and the world of technology is taking over the world.
So many problems, but you only have one lifetime.
Starting with my worries about technology, not that i'm not a person of technology, because compared to my parents and grandparents' time i am very much into technology and pretty much grew up with technology around me. And if you see me now, i'm pretty much holding my smartphone with me wherever i go. But do i still enjoy reading a book, smelling its musty smell, or reading the newspaper, getting my fingers black? Yes. Do i (occasionally) enjoy sweating, being out in the Sun around plants and trees listening to the birds chirping and crickets creakin? Yes. Will i survive an entire day without gadgets? Yes.
Being at the age where you see babies being born left, right, front and at the back of you, you would start noticing the different upbringing of a child in the era where a kid's meal would consist of French Fries and junks, flipping the pages of a book (IF they ever read one) would be swiping your finger from right to left on the iPad, and the only way to shut a crying baby up is to hand them your smartphone or tablet for a game. Is this how i would raise my future kids? I dread it.
I find myself relying on technology so much that it scares me. I always use the amazing application Waze when i need to find something, instead of the old conventional way of using my brain or asking around. Technology had molded our mindset into "Don't waste time on trial and error, get i right on the first time" which doesn't actually sound evil, but is an error due to trying bad? There's a saying :
"You haven't seen the light until you've seen darkness."How true is this statement? Not that i am encouraging everyone to SEEK darkness, but life gives you a whole new pair of goggles after you've experienced a certain part of life. So there's no harm in trying right? Gu Jun Pyo (Lee Min Ho) once said in Boys Over Flowers (Yes, i watched that movie DON'T JUDGE :P ) :
"I'd rather regret doing something rather than regret not doing something"However, with the one of the many gift of God to mankind ; technology, a borderless world was born. There must be something we can do with this, right? It might be a blessing in disguise for a meek little person like me.
I want to try saving the environment, I want to try help Malaysia to grow into a better nation, I want to find out what the Lord has in store for me, I want to find out who I am, I want to find out my place on this Earth, I want to find out where I belong.
So many wants, but there is no scarcity of resources here. (Economics in life, uhuh)
Where do I start? How will I know if this is not one of my hot chicken shit desires? How will I carry these out?
I need a fire, I need a kick (yes, kick not a push cos it won't suffice), I need a path miraculously opened to me in the wilderness.
Pray, pray, and pray for the answer will be the answer. Until i get the answer, i will continue to believe and continue trying in the little baby steps i am able to do as of now as He had told us to do.
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. Matthew 7 : 7
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. Matthew 11 : 24
If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer. Matthew 21 : 22
Sharing this song with all of you because its lyrics are a story to my feeling as of now
There must be more than this,
O breath of God come breathe within,
There must be more than this,
Spirit of God we wait for You.
Fill us anew we pray,
Fill us anew we pray.
(Chorus)
Consuming fire fan into flame,
A passion for Your Name,
Spirit of God won't you fall in this place,
Lord have Your way,
Lord have Your way with us,
Come like a rushing wind,
Clothe us with power from on high,
Now set the captives free,
Leave us abandoned to Your praise.
Lord let Your glory fall,
Lord let Your glory fall.
(Chorus)
Consuming fire fan into flame,
A passion for Your Name,
Spirit of God won't you fall in this place,
Lord have Your way,
Lord have Your way with us,
Come like a rushing wind,
Clothe us with power from on high,
Now set the captives free,
Leave us abandoned to Your praise.
Lord let Your glory fall,
Lord let Your glory fall,
(Chorus)
Consuming fire fan into flame,
A passion for Your Name,
Spirit of God won't you fall in this place,
Lord have Your way,
Lord have Your way with us,
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts,
A passion for Your Name.
(A passion for Jesus)
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts,
A passion for Your Name.
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